And yet I feel like i'm falling apart...

I hate having to do this but really...I just gotta get all this shit out so everyone knows why I'm not the same as I always am...why i'm more of a loner now.

Because:

School is hard now...yeah I'm a fucking genius sometimes, like in chemestry how i manadged to get over 100%...but that doesn't mean its easy for me. In fact I worked for everyone of my points...

Swimming has now started and thats taking a lot of energy and making me feel like crap because i'm so out of shape...

I am still fretting over last March and my step-dad leaving...I mean...he IS my dad...been around for 12 years...

I have been renfourced that all men are pigs. Both real and step fathers to me cheated on my mother.

Mom has now gotten a new boyfriend...fuck. He is a cool guy...but not like that...I just don't...feel like he belongs here.

I am a spoild brat and I feel like he is taking her away from me...when he is my everything now.

My Therapist has now pointed out I am pretty much a horrible person...Because I don't want to share and that I care more about animals the people.

Fun facts about why I perfer animals:
1. I had no friends until middle school. That is why I hate sharig friends loves. When I get them I don't want to be left alone again.
2. I was abused and bullied until highschool...which is why I try to top something, brag, and think high of myself...because that was how i tried to fight back...y proving I was a person.
3. Heartbreak is hell.

You all know my Rat Albert right?
Well he is no longer mine...I had to give him away...and the woman who took him isn't even keeping his name...that upsets me the most...

I have a phobia of Change ya'll...not even joking...



I now have Social Homework...